So this morning as I was waking up – you know that liminal space where you’re not quite asleep but not fully awake yet – I was talking with someone whose face was surrounded by autumn leaves. They were beautiful leaves; reds and oranges, perfect looking with no holes or rips. Her face was almost […]
I am up way before dawn because I couldn’t sleep, and then I found out it was Lion’s Gate. So with cigarette in one hand and ashtray in another I did my ritual, calling a full manifestation down, hearing a subtle “and stand among the stars” with each direction to the point I finally obeyed […]
I walked into the hall of the grotto to see feathers flip upward. I heard them as they went, and looked at a man weighed down with sorrow. He asked me to “turn back time”, bent so I could see his weathered face, and I… patted his cheek because he was so sad and tried […]
I had a spiritual journey months ago. I’d found how to dance, how to fly, how to world walk. And then as a newbie awakening shaman with no guide the way you should have, I became a prey animal. I was attacked early on and never knew it. I was pushed and used. I could […]
With all that I’ve been doing of late, I took the pop up 10×10 I used for fairs and set it up in the backyard with the help of Many Cats. That’s my little temple now, my vé. I’m still figuring things out, but I have used it for one ritual. I like to […]
I walk the dead. I always have. There was this one time my husband’s roommate had been caught in an explosion, and he was on a bed in the hospital waiting. He knew they would save him. He was waiting to be seen, and his faith made the people walking around him not matter. Invisible […]
Song singer starts alone, Five steadfast fly to her side. Mind-gold passed by sacred bond, Steps run where gods dare not stride. Balance measured, fates entwined, Six weave paths to bind the lands. Lies undone, Trickster’s truth is sung, Red sun blesses life’s fate strand. Spear asleep in wisdom’s hall, Peace held firm, a cradle’s […]
I heard my father protest like this once, “I’m a dreamer. I’m not the other kind.” I’m paraphrasing that last sentence – I can’t remember the word he used for ‘the other kind’. He might have said ‘shaman’ for all I know. According to Frank Speck’s paper – the one that reassured me that I […]
The Midē´wiwin. This is the “official” society for the mide, or the shaman. It’s Ojibwe in origin, but the religion has been spreading so that it even touches the coasts where my own people were originally from. They’re supposedly secretive. I’ve seen public lodge pages and drum circles you can pay to go to. The […]
Language studies, music, and telling stories are my mundane focuses. I used to act as well, but in life you sometimes have to choose. I’d act again if the chance came, but for now I concentrate on things I can reach. I was taking a Montauk language class. Good people. Montauk is classed as Algonquian-Y, […]
Before I start to get deep into things, I realized (while steam cleaning the floor) that I needed to start with my lineage, and why it’s important to you. I have a lot of reasons why I’m proud of who my ancestors were, and why I keep talking about it, oh, everywhere. I think my […]
03 – There Was a Voice Long Ago What do I talk about next? I thought about discussing taboos, or waxing brainy over the color orange. Then I remembered I had this little item in a folder since 2022. So I’d like to introduce you to Voice. Apparently you’re not supposed to talk about your […]
02 – When I Did The Unthinkable I thought I’d start off by talking about the event that got me going on this journey of mine. I’m not making it a secret that my older brother pissed me off, and when I get truly pissed off I tend to start moving diagonally across boards. But […]
01 – The Obligatory Introduction Agh Now that I have the blog built and I’m ready to go, all the fanciful paragraphs I’d thought up have flown away like so many scattered flutterbies. Where do I go from here? Well, let me start by telling you who I am. I’m Spearcarrier – I recently started […]